Fantsia Eternity

2005-08-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

Poem: Forgotten
What is it a wrong all from the beginning?I began to think that forgetting you was the best way out.How I wish that I never knew of your existence and how I wish to erase you from my memories pretending that we never met.I wanna wake up in the morning knowing nothing about you, forgetting your existence, forgetting the pain , having no tears, how I wished they all dried up.Everything about you is forgotten and we are strangers which paths never cross.Well at least it won't hurt that much anymore this way if we were only friends.Your abrupt answers disappoint me, only when you are alone you remembered my existence will my disppearance shocked you? I think not cos you are always in company of others, my disppearance won't matter a difference will it? Why? Why do i so fear to love you? Why do I so fear that my heart soften again in your presence? How I wished I would stopped loving you from this moment but its hurts. How i wished I could forget you from this moment but the light reminded me of your existence. I am never this lost and confused.Maybe tomorrow I will forget you...promise me that you will never come in search of me this time round and that me start anew.

2005-08-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

Poem: Love saturated with tears
Two parallels can never cross, people from two worlds coming together might be a wrong from the start.The love root has slipped itself into my heart bedrooted so deeply that once its pulled off my whole heart bleeds.My tears flow like the nile river and never stops.Each with a memory may it be sweet or painful collected in bottles.I wanna leave quietly one day away from your world.Don't come after me, you are free from the wings of love.In the bottom of my heart you will always live.I wont forget each tears each memories even the slightest smile.Everything about you seemed unimportant anymore, it doesn't hurt anymore, you didn't need to care anymore.Maybe I won't be able to keep you by my side anymore.Maybe I won't find you waiting by my school gate anymore.I won't be able to feel the warmth of ur lips anymore.Perhaps I won't be able to see your smile anymore.I wont't be able to wipe away your tears with a big hug.I won't be able to calm your darkest fears any longer.No one would ever hug me as tightly as you would as i wet ur face with my tears.But it all doesn't matter anymore really doesn't it?I carried every fragment of the prized memories in a bottle filled with tears wherever I may be.Stars reminded me of ur existence.Your brought light to the dark and chased away my fears and lonliness when i turned around to see your shadow in the darkest corner.You brought colours to my colour and showed me what love was about.Deep in my heart was a sincere thank you, hoped it reached all the way into your heart. All I ever want is that deep in your heart there would always be a place for me where its beyond the reach of others even if its just a little would do.I know that i wouln't stop loving you but it doesn't matter anymore really, it doesn't hurt anymore.The excruiating pain in my heart subsided. My heart stopped beating altogether.

2005-06-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Poem:Maybe thats love
When I look into the million stars above, I start to think of u...Our start was a fairytale to begin with,our changing love shows no end...In your arms loneliness stem from within.Your love might not have been enough or so it seems .Why am I feeling this? I must have been selfish to hold you back for myself. Or is it I am so afraid to lose? It must have been some kind of obession or insanity. Everything seems to have ended the night you held me in your arms.When i see the tears in your eyes, I saw many sorrows and fears hidden away in somewhere i couldn't search.What was going on you wouldn't tell.I wished i could wipe away the sorrows just like i wiped away your tears. If i were to step into the chapel with another man would you still smile and give me your warmest wishes? Or would you travel to another world that I couldnt search or find?I just want to say I would keep you buried beneath somewhere in my heart that others wouldnt reach, at least you exist in my fantasy.I just want to keep you close and tight to my heart so that I wouldnt forget those feelings I once had for you my love.I hope I wouldnt be forgotten too. Even so I know and believe that we will meet again someday and bade our last goodbyes.Even though we know the future does not exist, I still hold on to the last glimpse of hope...The taste of your lips was bitter cold, I could only feel the warmth of your hand ...I fear that once i let you go our story ends...

2005-03-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

Poem:Isn't it beautiful? (Poem not done by me)
My heart was swimming in words gathered by the wind.My voice bounded into a cloud-carried tommorrow.My heart trembled in the moon-swayed mirror.Soft tears,spilled with a stream of stars.Isn't it beautiful?If we could walk,hand in hand,I'll want to go to your town,your home, in your arms.Words halted by wind are gentle illusion.A tomorrow torn by clouds is the voice of a distant place.My heart that had been in a moon-blurred mirrror that flowed those stars that trembled and spilled cannot hide my tears.Isn't it beautiful?If we could walk,hand in hand,I'll want to go to your town,your home,in your arms.My dreams of your face that I softly touch melts in the morning.

2005-03-07T10:52:00.000+08:00

Poem:Affair
He was at the window when he saw a car stopped by the doorway.His wife baded goodbye to the shadow in the car.He knew.His wife acted nochonantly as if nothing has happened.He wanted badly to ask her who was the shadow in the car but held back.He decided to bury every question in his heart because he was afraid of losing her.He couldn't let go of her.The smell of the cologne in her dress was all that he could smell everytime he held her in his arms.He would repeatedly check the messages in her cell phone for that stranger.Every night, he could only wish for the doorbell to ring because he did not want his wife to ring the doorbell of another house down the street.In his mind,the image of the car stopping by the doorway was repeating over and over by itself.He could hardly sleep.When was the last time he had a good sleep?He didn't know.He only remembered that car stopping in the doorway now and then

2005-03-05T16:20:00.000+08:00

Poem:The night at the Beach
That night at the beach was magicial.It was the first night out for as long as i could remember.Listening to the sound of the waves crashing to the shore then seemed to repeat again and again with no end.I wished that time had froze there.The sea was such deep blue,we sat on the cold sand,the cold breeze blowing at our necks,we stared at the sea we thought about our future.Where does our future lies?The sea stretches to nowhere or so it seems.Distance doesn't matter anymore as long as we have each other in our hearts.That night was really cold,I was freezing as he held me in his protective arms and tried to cover me up with as much clothings as possible.How much time do we have togther ?I could only count my blessings cos i've met him.That night we had our first kiss as he hugged me to sleep.He started snoring softly in his sleep, he looked so innocent so much like a child,i began to fall alsleep myself,drifting off to dreamland slowly...

2005-03-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

Poem:The Special One
He is wAiTinG for you in a corner,no maTteR where he is you will kNoW
this is where faTe lies,you might not have sEeN him now,he maybe just right beSidE you,somewhere nEaR you,another UnFamiliaR faCe in rOaMinG in another part of the WoRld
sEekinG for the pRomiSe that you last hEld,all your liFe you have been lOokinG for the SpeCiaL oNe croSsinG the tiMe and diStance,no mAtteR where you are the SpeCiaL oNe is there wAiTinG,even if it means that you caNnOt be toGetheR in this liFe,there will also be a cHanCe for you to mEet agAiN in the neXt liFe or the neXt....

2005-03-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

Poem:Angel
This angel wore no long white robe neither has he a holy halo over his head. This an guardian angel of mine is a crybaby that worries over the slighest thing possible.Fretting over whether I had my meals on time and whether I had reached home safely.How could i have never reach home safely when I got you to escort me?You had so much silliness in you that you did so many things like a silly fool instead of an angel.Are angels suppposed to behaved like that?But each of your silliness is a sweet memory that still remains deep down inside me.You are the first angel that would forced a frown even though I could see a grin on your face.Did you know that you look so silly when u tried to frown with a grin on your face and when u got all teary?If you weren't that silly I wouldn't have loved you that much.You become my playmate and best friend so don't ever leave me alone.The first time you ever came to my rescue was that silly conversation we had when you appeared to me and said that you would come whenever I am in danger.Then you started appearing in my dreams.You appeared again when I sprained my ankle and wouldn't budge.Ypou held me gently with your arms down the steps home.You gobbled down your food and ran stops to the train station.Do angels eat?Don't they fly instead of taking a train?Anyway I wouldn't care that much because to me you are already a full-flaged angel.An angel that would cover my blanket in the cold nights and whisper prayers to grant all my dreams and keep me safe.Mr Angel I wouldnt stop loving you even I know its a deadly sin.I prayed to the heavens above that you won't be able to leave my side until I held my last breath.That way I will join you in the heavens above and forlick in the clouds high up.My undying love for you runs deeply through my viens, silly fool.

2005-03-05T12:54:00.000+08:00

Poem:Movie
That was the first time we met for real.I was having a terrible diahorrea for as many times as I could hardly remember thats when everything started to go wrong. I tried to get those bad feeling out of my mind and imagine all the pleasant things that was going to next place.You appearing in a boyish outfit and cracking up jokes with me in that cosy armchair sitting next to each other.Yet everything seemed so out of place when you appeared in such weird looking outfit and behaving in such a strange manner instead.Never came across such a boy before. I tried to crack up with you but nonetheless you remained quiet.We acted as though it was a slient movie when it was playing in bright colours.None of us spoke.You were behaving like a psycho by keeping quiet all the time and standing a distance from us.I really got to say I was freaked out by you,your werid behaviour and all the more when u said u liked me in the night.Yet it was such an unforgettable first time even though everything seemed to have gone wrong.That was our first time to the movies.I tired to question myslef what would the secondand third time be like?Or would there be no second time?

2005-03-04T07:52:00.000+08:00

Poem:I remembered
We first met for a movie cos you said you were bored.I agreed to go into courtship with you days before your birthday.We first held hands on Christmas Eve.I recieved the first teddy hug a long time ago before I could recall.We shared our first kiss under the starry skies on the beach.The first time when you ever came to my rescue was when I fell and sprained my ankle.We never had our first quarrel though.Didn't know that you were such a crybaby until u shed the first tear for over my poems.Ever count the days we were togther?The memories created were much more than the deep blue sea.It seems as if all had only happened yesterday.Why do I only have the reflection of you in my eyes?You stole away my glance under the broad daylight and came again for my heart under the moonlight,I tried to fence but why cant I, only to find you sneek your way into my heart.Why do I choose no other but you when all I could as to be in the arms of another man.Well I guess must have been the gentle sparkle in eyes and a heartwarming radiant smile of yours that won me over.Making fun of you had always been a joy of my life.You have always remained as a special existence to me that can never be replaced.The things you 've done for me will always remain deep down in my heart.The cold nights made me wonder what should do if i never had you to cover my blanket.When I am with you I seem to appreciate the slighest thing that ever happened, each with a story to unfold.Ever knew that I was moved to tears by all that you've done and the love you gave?Was truly wondering how could i ever find u boring when you are one of the nicest guy i ever knew.

2005-03-04T07:51:00.000+08:00

Poem:Are You the Man for me?
Are you more than willing to keep my house spick and span?Do you mind if I mention other guys' names in your presence?Would you turn white to green to red then to black,I ever do that?Do you mind if I sometimes think of another man other than you?Or would you slap me in the face and shove me out of the house?Could you excuse and spare me a space bigger than that miserable toliet in your house?Am I only allowed to step out of the house only with your permission?If I ever feeel cold,would you hug me with your protective arms and wrap me up like a mummmy?When I am feeling lousy,wpould youtry to perk me up with your funny acts?When I'm feeling happy,would you share my joy and go crazy with me?Could I tickle your stomach just because I feel like it?Or would you push my hands away roughly ans say "Oh man,could you stop acting like a child?"Would you rush to my side when I'm in danger?Would you fret over a mere stomachache of mine?Do u say prayers to keep me safe and grant my dreams?Could I pull ur cheeks just because I find them chubby and cute?Can I give you a kick or two to keep my stress level low?Would you call the cops saying I was a psycho?Would you make my tears roll with your lies and empty promises?Would you rather I tie up up in a chair and hit you as many times as I can instead of giving you away as a present?Would you wait a hour more before walking away because I was late?Do you mind if I forget to shampopo my hair and grew a few pimples more?Do you mind if I make fun of you and give you nicks cos I treat it as a joy in life?All I ever want is to be cuddled up in your protective arms when I'm cold and be comforted when I'm feeling lousy.Do you know that I hate it when people lie to me and give me empty promises they wouldn't keep?I won't want to keep a jealous man that thinks I am unfaithful because of the names I meantioned or the faces I keep in my mind.I needed alot of space to be with my family and frineds.Is my appearance that important to you?I won't want to be a flower vase.Wouls you still love me for who I am?The dashing and charming men may not be abale to fulfil all these qualities but the guy beside me did.Every other man could be nice but they are not you.I've learnt to count my blessings because I've met you.You are the man for me.

2005-03-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Poem:I've been thinking all this while
I miss the way you would snore like a pig every mornings,
I miss the way you would stand outside my school in the afternooons with a silly smile on your face,I miss the way you would message me into the nights....
The silly grin on your face when u forced a frown,your teddy bear hugs and your wet smooches they bring in so many memories.
Don't think I'll ever forget the gentleness in your eyes and the sadness that just melts my heart away.Since when have i ever felt this way about you.... fate that brings us together might not be able to give me the answer either.Guess it must have been my love for you, as silly as it might have sound I am falling for you a little more everyday. I dont know if we can go that far but I know that I could not have come this far without you.I wouldn't want to lose the key to your heart so I'll probably keep in my prized locket.Don't say you never own a place in my heart cos if you didn't I'll never be bothered with you.
Would we remain as this for a lifetime?Or would everything ends as fast as it begins?Would we go through a lifetime together?
Well dont think I'll ever meet the 2nd nicest man again. All that i ever want was to say thank you.

O levels!!!

2005-03-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hmm haha got back my o levels results slip le...wow cant believe it I really got 4 As and my aunt as promisee will treat me to a buffet haha so cool...rite >_______< and I got an aggregate of 13 points although I didnt hit my goal of 10 to 12 points i am still really glad that i at least got 13 points which was not really bad after all.The highest was 10 points and so when i thought i was dead meat haha lolx and when i got back my results haha so glad and my classmates were like wow haha and gaped at me with their mouths open haha .....Well i hope to go to into Saint Andrew Junior College but i missed by 2 points hopefully when i appeal they will let me through ...or not then I will go Nanyang Junior College.....

2005-02-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

Hello....hmmm wats wrong with me le lar.....hai under a lot of stress nowadays p(`O´*)...this is getting crazy ....I am not only the class treasurer in my class but i have to underatke so many duties at one time....now i have to take over as the overall in charge for my sch stall this Fri(T^T).I have to stay back to count money stuff and then after that i will be away for the chalet ....hehe but the best part is I will be staying overnite at the chalet!under the beautiful star-filled skies and the breeze blowing wah so happy and then listen to the sound of the sea gushing to the shore with my dear...（≧ω≦) then if can i wanna watch the sunrise....then the next day go eat sushi hehe >__________< yummy!! Muhahaha....i going to pull him to eat with me XP then we going to watch the Hide and Seek movie i hope that i dun get freaked out (=_=;).....

2004-12-31T15:14:00.000+08:00

Poem:Remembrance
I just wanna remember everything,everything about you,the words you say,the things you've done for me,the emotions you show.I just wanna remember them forever,I don't want to forget them.In my heart I just wanna say a big thank you and that I love you just as much...
I'll remember them,I'll remember our story till we all grow old...I'll get to tell them one of these days...
From the first time I saw you I know that in your eyes we belong together,till we are apart I'll feel our sorrow mixed with tears...I know...I'll tell it sometime ok!I hope I'll remember,remember the love we once hold,the hearts that once touched,the hands that once embraced,your warmth and smell wwill remain inside me...I won't forget...I promise to...so I hope you won't forget our story too.

2004-12-20T15:45:00.000+08:00

dRaWiNg oF lAn fRm wEiB KrUEz cOOL RiTez > ^_^<

2004-12-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

This is my latest pic drawn for Ben Kor de hieee >_<

Romeo

2004-10-18T14:41:00.000+08:00

Poem :Romeo
Romeo oh Romeo will u come as a knight in shinning armor riding on a white gallant horse, to bring me away from our destined fates that bind us together. Riding across the vast plains onto a faraway place call paradise. I have beening wanting to ask you a question? Romeo oh Romeo can you tell me where your heart lies? I will be willing to follow you riding on the horse across the vast plains to the hidden place in the clouds where the trumpets of the carols are played and the angels await, if you have notice my hidden love for you.

A Poem for....

2004-10-13T18:36:00.000+08:00

A Poem For ......
A tingly feeling in my heart, leaves me pondering over the questions.....What am I feeling now? Sadness? Happiness? Emptiness? Confusion overuns my mind. I am no longer myself. To others it will always remain a secret. How i wish i know the answer!!Maybe i know the answer but am too afraid to tell.Under the strong pretendence and false smiles , I just wish i could tell that someone the truth....Time can never be reverse. Things remained changed. What lies beneath my heart I do not know. I wonder why does heaven acts nochalant as if nothing has happened before when certainly it left ripples in my heart. When the sun shines agian tommorrow, I wonder what will tommorrow holds?

2004-06-29T17:13:00.000+08:00

Every one isnt't this guy cute ...haha someone from the shoujo manga....my latest work..

2004-06-24T17:40:00.000+08:00

For everyone with Luv...another one of my latest work...(>_<)

2004-06-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

Hieee isn't this Kawaii!!Another piece of my artwork

2004-06-24T16:39:00.000+08:00

Bishounen!!Kare KaKoii!!(>_<) Drawn by me...

2004-06-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

Well my school is starting next week and I still have a bit of homework to do....Having a little bad luck this week...I actually was going to stay over at my cousins' place but I had band the next day and couldnt make it and guess wat they went to the beach to fish and I totally missed the fun...and they are going again on Wednesday but I have to go to band so sad...then on father's day my mum asked me to buy a cake for my granddad, I actually did remembered it but as soon as I got downstairs I forgot about it but luckily my maid reminded me , then i got on the bus which I had to transfer to another before reaching my ,mum's place but I missed the stop and I had to walk back to the bus stop (=_=).That was the end to my bad luck, to make things worse I went to school early for my additional maths class but to find out that the class had been called off, so I went to band, the members were having foot drills. The teacher asked us to lift our right leg 90 degree off the ground for 15 mins and my leg was shivering and developed leg cramps. Then I lost balance and fell on my knees in front of a lot of ppl in outside the shopping mall that we went for our luch break ...oh my good that was really embarrassing and I was totally in a shock when that happened and my friends had to drag me up.

2004-06-04T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hi noe wat something incredible happened...my little brother did a push up in his sleep and this this probably the new type of sleeping walking disease...haha and he aslo mumured "Oh...no no no..." in his sleep...I really cant help but laughed....
Just changed the blogger with a new wallpaper todae...its really cool from Final Fantasy 8 its the big family gathering...anyway I really like Final Fantasy 8 esp Selphie and Irvine hehe hope to meet a lot of other ppl who like them too ...(>_<)

2004-06-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

Helo everyone ...bookaya ...hehe...hmm...actually i just had my o'level chinese yesterdae wah!! Anyway the holiday has just started but i got tons of homwork to do so i gues my holidays is finished but i am really glad ...anyway sweet dreams for toade everyone ok ....ii o yume mitte kudasai!!!bye lol...hehe

2004-03-08T20:14:00.000+08:00

Helo...everyone...soori so never write any entry...haha(>_<) anyway...the weeks before got a lot of exams and I did not do really well...sooo sad (=_='')...and then got this cross country run thingy...wa I actually first running this 3.2km thingy so veri the tried but ok veri funny somehow...hmmm then todae I joined my class to do the class banner (^_^) so nice...I wonder wat's the result!! I am playing the ragnarok online game, its really cool and nice with all the cool graphics and all but my lvl is too low after all this playing but thxks to my frens they always help me...I heard that in this game we can get married...I am not telling u a secret haha...Ya and todae my teacher told us his leaving he's such a nice guy...I so sad he leaving us on Fri...I nearly cried in class

2004-02-07T15:09:00.000+08:00

Hiee Bookay...Hooray I finally finished with my design ....how is it(>_<) Its from Final Fantasy X of high summoner Yuna......ha ha I really like it....Hope that many people will vist my blooger...

You know what... Last Saturday I went to Bishan Junction 8 ....there's so much people as much as 5000 people and guess what they are all queing for Vic Zhou's signature session....he is so handsome,fair and tall.Kare,kakkoii (>_<)He is so cool!!He even sang and shook our hands.But in the crowd,I felt like a sweating pig haha and the funny joke is that I almost tripped(=_=')

2004-02-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hieee....Hey everyone I finally started my first blogger....pls send all ur comments in future to me k...Hey I am really thrilled hmmm...dont know what ya to say(>_<)